I let my mind drift,
As I lay with my head on your mother’s chest,
Listening to her calm heart beat.
Relax.
So many things to do and things I want to do.
Relax.
But I have such limited time.
Relax.
I lifted my head, unsure –
And suddenly noticed how quiet the world was.
I could no longer hear your mother’s heartbeat.
And I remembered when you were born how distant, empty, and frightening the world must have seemed when you could no longer hear your mother’s heart beat.
I held you shortly after you were born,
And you cried
And I still remember your expression because I can see it in my mind
And I can see it now when you cry now,
Or if you’re scared.
And if I’m honest with myself,
I was scared too, and sometimes
I still am.
Relax.
It’s so nice to listen to your mother’s calm gentle heartbeat.
Relax.